I thought everything was ready.........

 

But actually everything is not ready yet................

 

Fxxked up~~~~~~~~~~~

 

When can I really make this thing happen~~~

一个星期真系过得好快 >_<

 

唔知点写落去添,开头开得太"行"了......... 咔咔

 

话说5月30号早上我终于到左KL,一个人着住长衫长裤,30几度,拖住个17K既行李箱行左10几20分钟先稳到传说中既酒店.......

有几狼狈就真系唔好提了....... 只怪自己方向感真系麻麻

下午3点左右终于等到LF出现, 咔咔,行程终于算系开始啦

 

第一站KL,作为MY既首都,真系麻麻..........

记得4年前黎觉得呢到好好,点知今次再黎,印象大减.......

唔知系米金融风暴关系,好多烂尾楼,成个城市感觉就系好乱.........

KLCC附近的确依然系好靓,可惜KL唔只KLCC一个地方呢,政府系米应该管理下其他地方呢........

 

去左吃传说中既肉骨茶同烧鸡翅,点知LF都觉得中国既好好多......... 资料算系白做.........

LF可以讲对KL既所有野都唔感兴趣........唯独系马来咖喱,最吸引距,因为够辣又抵吃......真系晕低(哦,仲有酸梅桔子水, 表姐同仔爷极力推荐的, 真系唔错)

 

系KL留左一日半之后,飞去REDANG热浪岛

话说飞果日我地提前左40分钟到机场(仲要专登坐38RM既快铁去),点知都系属于LATE CHECK IN

ANYWAY,果日个KLIA实在系太混乱,所以最后上到机就林住可以松口气(呢到要特别多谢LF既支持同提点)

点知去到TGG机场,见唔到托运既行李.........

一番追问之下,原来行李仲系KL机场........未运.........晕死~~~~~~~~~~

话要跟下一班机黎.....即系3点9先到......去REDANG既船最后一班系3点......即系今日都拿唔到行李.......orz.........

即系无衫换,无泳衣着,无得游水,无得潜水,无毛巾,无牙刷.......咩都无

两条友对住无敌大海景.....发偶窦........果然系,好休闲........

等左一个下午,一个夜晚,一个早上,终于拿翻D行李, THANK GOD

 

讲翻REDANG,比我想象既要细,而且真系好多人~~~~~~~~~~看住LAGUNA个潜水队伍.......少讲都有成百人.........好惊

海水真系好清好蓝,沙都好白,可惜岸上既死珊瑚都好多,见到都难免有心痛既感觉

景点开发.................

不过,水底既风景的确系值得一看

系好浅既地方就可以见到好多鱼同珊瑚,对于浮潜既人黎讲,精彩过CAIRNS

好中意水里面既感觉,好安静,净系听到自己既呼吸声

不过唔知点解, 如果我自己一个人潜去人少既地方比D珊瑚包围住,就会有莫名既恐惧感.......

静态既庞大物品总会令我觉得有神秘既力量....... -_-|||

我地系REDANG住既地方比较简单同人唔算好多. 最中意系每晚吃完饭同LF系海边行下,之后坐系吧台旁边饮翻杯COCKTAIL, 好休闲既生活, 好舒服

噢,仲有海上既闪电,海岛上既暴雨同行雷, 都系好难忘

 

3日既海岛生活之后, 下一站到左全程我同LF最中意既地方, PENANG

本来只系林住打发多出黎既一日时间, 点知, 好开心选择左去呢个地方

中意呢度既绿化,建筑,人情味

同LF既一小段单车之旅, 邱公司既辉煌装饰, 街边铺仔既劲辣面同咖啡奶茶可可, 的士司机既健谈同对成个城市既熟悉

有机会既话,真系好想再去一次槟城, 慢慢看真D

 

由于水平既关系,上传既相可能反映唔到真实既情况,咔咔

不过大家看住先啦, 有兴趣既自己去实地考察下啦, 嘻嘻

P.S. 美食之旅算唔上,变左感冒之旅, 咔咔

 

 

 

 

老细今日唔翻，呢排又正值得闲既时期，所以林住搞下个SPACE。都有成个几月无UPDATE过了。

 

仲有一个星期多D就去MY了，哈哈，好期待～～～～系网上搜左好多关于吃既资讯，看怕今次会变成增肥之旅 有D可惜既系而加SWINE FLU流行， 吃野既时候可能未必可以尽兴。不过MY好似仲未有案例，希望唔会有好大影响。

 

虽然手头上无咩工作，但系令人忧心既事就一件跟住一件。觉得个脑好似NON-STOP禁WORRYING。慢慢开始叫自己唔好林禁多野。有好多事，始终系人算不如天算。可以既话当然系尽力将不愉快减少到最低。 努力做好自己可以做既事，其他野就顺其自然了。林下其他条件比自己艰苦，遭遇比自己惨既人，感觉自己而加其实仲系好幸福的。尽力保持乐观同积极既心态，无论几时都系应该的。

 

琴日又周围逛左下中学同学既BLOG。好中意禁样去了解大家过得如何。当然系有喜有悲啦，不过感觉大家依然系好积极的。印象中既各位依然系停留系中学既模样同感觉，就算看到而加既相，林起既依然系着校服既样，哈哈。

 

好啦，写唔落去了。。。。。就禁先，咔咔

发觉有林唔通既事既时候，同人地倾下，的确系有帮助的,特别系过来人...

 

或者系我道行未够，好多野，转左牛角尖就出唔翻黎，越陷越深，越陷越深.........

 

Yes, I am new to all these. 有好多事我唔能够理解, 唔能够忍受........ But I am trying my best to adjust myself now.

 

希望我能够被体谅, 亦希望以后依然可以一齐努力

 

I believe you 

越黎越希望有个预知未来既人，可以100%话比我知，我而家所做既一切究竟系岩定错

 

好明显，呢个世界无个禁既人

 

当一个人为自己做左一两个貌似重要既决定之后，系唔系就会有不安既情绪？

 

定系只有我系禁

 

我林，我貌似做左好唔明智既抉择？亦貌似将自己既生活推向更加不稳定同更多既未知？

 

系不断禁帮自己既决定做围护既同时，其实我都好惊。。。

 

突然间又好想多谢黄生同黄太，无可否认距地比左好多压力我，但系有更多既支持同包容。。。

 

或者我今次的确系任性左。。。。。。。

 

所以面对以后，我只可以尽力而为。。。。。。

 

人总要经历下波折先会成长吧。。。。。

 

只可以希望自己真系好硬正了。。。。。

 

觉得好无聊。。。。。。。

无论做咩都好无聊。。。。。。。。。。

好似所有野都失去意义禁。。。。。。

好无聊禁过每一日。。。。。

挨时间再挨时间。。。。。

倒数再倒数。。。。。。

一日好似成年禁。。。。。。。

我究竟想做咩呢？？？？？？

好担心。。。。。。对于未知既一切

个人认为,当人有林唔通既野既时候,即便向人倾诉,稳人安慰自己,最终都系要自己林通先可以解决问题

 

所以,我向来觉得,向人倾诉系无用既,祈求人地安慰令到自己好过D,都系无用既

 

所以,我一直觉得要结束林唔通既事情,就要自己将自己关起身,慢慢"疗伤"

 

近排发觉好似唔系禁........

 

TOTALLY 唔系禁过喔

 

自己只会令自己越陷越深,更加钻牛角尖

 

就好似自己帮自己织个网,越林吴通就织得越密不透风,越密不透风就越林唔通

 

当然,我唔系想推翻自己之前既观点

 

要林通,依然要靠自己

 

只系我发觉,当你林唔通既时候,同人地倾下计,留意下人地既事情人地既世界,就会发觉之前令你林唔通既事情其实系好小事

 

真系好小好小

 

世界禁大,点解要为左禁小禁无谓既事烦恼........

 

呢个就系人地之于我既作用

 

HANGING OUT WITH PPL IS REALLY NECESSARY SOEMTIMES.

 

某人一定好高兴听到我禁讲 (讲下,我都未必做得到)

 

呢排好似癫左禁

 

心情大起大落得犀利,自己都几乎顶吴顺

 

我净系想要D平静幸福既小日子姐,要求吴系好高挂

 

应该学某D世外高人禁,林少D尘世既烦扰之事,心境应该就会自然平静

 

系干燥既环境下生活得耐左,个人都变得烦躁

 

越黎越容易有ANNOYING既感觉, 就连行路比前面个人阻住行吴快都觉得吴爽

 

系米更年期提早左30年黎到......

 

既然有傻婆呢个名,就要有翻傻婆既本质

 

凡事看开D,大家D日子都好过D

 

你好我好大家好啊嘛, 咔咔

落班既时候,又有一种做咩都无意义既感觉

 

好似好耐无试过禁无心机

 

的确系咩都无兴趣做,做咩都无晒动力

 

成日好惊讶人地话,因为某件事或者某一个人,可以从完全无意义既生活变到每日都值得期待

 

呢样野好似,一直都未出现

 

好想过D每日都有意义既日子

 

点样先系有意义???我究竟想做咩???

 

如果系而家行紧既呢条路停落黎, 得到自由, 我又系米真系稳得到我想行既另外一条路?

 

沉迷有时可能都系种幸福

Was a long and dark December
From the rooftops I remember
There was snow
White snow

Clearly I remember
From the windows they were watching
While we froze down below

When the future’s architectured
By a carnival of idiots on show
You'd better lie low

If you love me
Won’t you let me know?

Was a long and dark December
When the banks became cathedrals
And the fog
Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles
Hollowed out to fit their rifles
And the cross was held aloft

Bury me in honor
When I'm dead and hit the ground
A love back home it unfolds

If you love me
Won't you let me know?

I don't want to be a soldier
With a captain of some sinking ship
With snow
Far below

So if you love me
Why'd you let me go?

I took my love down to violet hill
There we sat in the snow
All that time
She was silent still

So if you love me
Won't you let me know?
If you love me
Won't you let me know?

拿左部MP3之后, 呢两日都从STRATHFIELD行翻屋企.

 

又有翻读高中果时既感觉, 歌, 同得自己一个人行既路.当然, 大马路点都无中大禁静啦, 呵呵. 不过,多少都稳翻果种感觉.

 

今日做左个决定, 林左一日, 最后都系跟翻早上既林法.

 

有时有D野, 可能大家会觉得我系逃避??!!! 我自己都觉得系, 或者我认我的确系. 不过, 我始终都觉得我应该禁做.

 

越黎越觉得未系时候... 所以我吴觉得今次系放弃, 因为我知道我以后一定会继续. 等果个阶段到左, 我一定会继续行呢条路.

 

一定会有好多人问我点解.....又一定会有好多人觉得可惜.....无所谓啦, 决定系我自己做, 预左会比人话.

 

我吴可以百份百讲自己系岩既, 特别系系某生同某太眼中, 可能又系我吴挨得既证明.

 

ANYWAY, 可能我的确系吴挨得..............唉, 无得救了我................

coldplay - viva la vida

i used to rule the world
seas would rise when i gave the word
now in the morning i sweep alone
sweep the streets i used to own
i used to roll the dice
feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
listen as the crowd would sing:
"now the old king is dead!
long live the king!"
one minute i held the key
next the walls were closed on me
and i discovered that my castles stand
upon pillars of salt, pillars of sand
i hear jerusalem bells a ringing
roman cavalry choirs are singing
be my mirror my sword and shield
my missionaries in a foreign field
for some reason i can't explain
once you know there was never,
never an honest word
that was when i ruled the world
it was the wicked and wild wind
blew down the doors to let me in
shattered windows and the sound of drums
people couldn't believe what i'd become
revolutionaries wait
for my head on a silver plate
just a puppet on a lonely string
oh who would ever wanna be king?
i hear jerusalem bells a ringing
roman cavalry choirs are singing
be my mirror my sword and shield
my missionaries in a foreign field
for some reason i can't explain
i know saint peter won't call my name
never an honest word
but that was when i ruled the world
(ohhhhh ohhh ohhh)
hear jerusalem bells a ringing
roman cavalry choirs are singing
be my mirror my sword and shield
my missionaries in a foreign field
for some reason i can't explain
i know saint peter won't call my name
never an honest word
but that was when i ruled the world

小路～～～～基于呢排你实在系好烦，所以我决定同你讲！！！

 

我好吴中意D人：

患得患失！！！

无事变小，小事变大！！！

成日乱林野！！！！

主次不分！！！

吴知自己想点！！！

净系识得讲，无D实际行动！！！

成日比空口承诺！！！

完全无为将来打算过！！！

D野明明有所谓又扮到无所谓！！！

过份安于现状！！！

吴上进！！！

成个细路仔禁！！！

逃避现实！！！

 

就系禁了~~~~~

吴该你自己好好反省下，小路～～～～ 吴好成日烦住我！！！ 多谢！！！！

 

想写D野，不过吴知应该写咩

 

通常系搭TRAIN 或者BUS既时候会林到好多野，但系对住部电脑就咩都写吴出黎了

 

不过近排又的确无咩大事发生，都系翻下工，翻下学，交下功课，考下试，出去吃下饭禁，咔咔

 

STRUGGLING既时候依然系有既，不过系呢一刻都过左去了，哈哈

 

过埋今个星期就连TAFE都放假了。加上7月初系淡季，返工几乎都无野做，估计将会进入极度得闲时期。

 

极度得闲又吴系好想洗钱，吴知可以点过呢。。。

 

有突然间兴起想做某D野既冲动，不过基于某人话我应该比较理性，所以最后都系决定放弃了 （我要努力等等等等等等等等等等等等等等等等等等，有耐性系我 优点黎嘎嘛，哈哈！！！）

 

另外，系黄太既劝告之下，决定下个学期读埋最后两科 （其实依然吴系好有把握，不过都试下啦！！！黄太又一次成功左了，好犀利啊距！！）。ANYWAY 啦，最坏既打算都系DEFER既姐。

 

UM...基本上就系禁，真系林吴到可以写D咩，哈哈。。。

 

哦，可以略略禁提下，之前有一件事林黎林去都觉得吴知点好，但系而家终于知道自己想点做了，哈哈！！！结果依然系，我等等等等等等等等等等等等等等等等...

 

EXPECT THE WORST, HOPE FOR THE BEST

 

林到最坏既结果既同时，尚存一丝希望，大家一齐努力 ^_^

 

 

Ppl called in and said I actually needed to wait another 6 months for the application.

 

The boss said he felt sorry for me.

 

Well, in fact, i think i feel a bit relief.

 

I don't really feel ready for this honestly.

 

But anyway, I can wait. It's just perfect for me to finish the Cert III study and then to worry about the other business thing again.

 

Peaceful days again, which is great!! 

It's only something I suddenly thought of, not really related to this entry...

 

Well, haven't been updating here for a while, coz nothing much happened... or too much happened...

 

I finished my exams, moved out from chatswood, started sth new, crashed my car seriously, am still doing the CS in TAFE, waiting for a registration, hoping for the year end so I can get money back, expecting to do sth really on my own later... That's pretty much the big issues~~~

 

Expected things are going further away, the unexpecteds r just getting nearer. Feeling uncertain almost about everything, trying to seize back the faith graduatelly leaving myself.

 

Miss my younger days more and more, when you don't really need to do things on your own and just feel free to rely on anyone. I know I have parents, relatives, freinds and people who really wanna help me. But the feeling of being on my own just gets stronger and stronger. I know I'm not on my own, I know I should feel thankful, I know I should be happy. I know it all, but that means what~~~~~

 

Expect the worst and hope for the best, keep holding on, hoho

 

Sorry if you think this is a moaning out of nothing...... Maybe it really is

因为某Ｄ原因，今日突然间拿翻个ＭＤ出黎听，卡卡

 

点知发觉又多只碟磁化左．．．．．．．．．．

 

好似系第二定第三只碟系禁了．．．

 

好在今次呢只系中国仲有ＣＤ留系到．．．

 

随便选左只幸存既

 

好令人怀念啊！！！！Ｄ歌！！！！

 

全部都系８，９年之前既心水了，竟然到而家都仲系觉得好好听，哈哈！！！

 

好多都耐到吴记得左自己有只禁既歌了，ＳＵＲＰＲＩＳＥ！！！

 

希望呢只碟吴会磁化啦，如果吴系都吴知去边度稳翻呢Ｄ歌．．．

 

好开心啊，卡卡！！！！！要试下有无办法将Ｄ歌系部ＭＤ到ＴＲＡＮＳＦＥＲ翻落部电脑先！！！

 

ＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡＨＡ～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～

 

有ＱＵＥＥＮ＇Ｓ　ＢＩＲＴＨＤＡＹ　去ＮＳＷ　既　ＳＯＵＴＨ　ＣＯＡＳＴ既打算，不过尚在打算中．．．卡卡

 

有Ｄ野，的确吴系话你想做，你觉得你做得到，就真系做得到．

 

有时，系人既本质问题，或者原则问题？？！！！！

 

ＦＥＥＬ　ＵＮＣＯＭＦＯＲＴＡＢＬＥ，　ＴＨＥＮ　ＤＯＮ＇Ｔ　ＤＯ　ＩＴ．

 

不过我原先真系以为我得嘎

 

套用小Ｅ既一句话＂有贼心无贼胆＂，哈哈，果然我都系禁

 

 

When I did the CS class tonite, ppl were talking abt how toys may be harmful to children.

 

Then some westerners went very natually like "oh, those toys are Made in China!!"

 

SO WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

I know some toys from China may really harm children, but Chinese don't make it on purpose!!

 

I don't really like people being so despiteful!! Totally unecessary!!!

 

There must be someone want these toys, so they set up the factory in China, and hire Chinese cheap labours to make it. Not Chinese people make it intentionally to harm the children. No one asks you to buy things that made in China. If you don't like it, just leave it!! They don't even think that it's actually the Chinese labour who suffered most from these damn things. You guys have those F..king checking systems, they don't work properly, so don't blame China.

 

I don't deny things Made in China should be definitely improved. However, just don't make it like Made in China always means low quality. WTF!!

 

Well, maybe i'm a bit radical. Anyway, I do think some people are just too unreasonable and doing this whole getting rid off responsibility things too well.

 

I'm also Made in China, so I may be harmful too!!

So, no experience may not mean anything......

 

The willling to learn should be the most important

 

I chose this road then I should have faith for myself

 

Never doubt till u really try hard

 

So, give myself some motivation, let's keep going......